?
2013-09-07 10:30:39 UTC
My ACTIONS: I'm on summer vacation. Usually I wake up, go to the bathroom and then go on my computer. When my mom calls me down to eat, I tell her "One sec" because I'm in the middle of something. That something tends to be a book, manga, anime, a game, etc. A few minutes later I go downstairs to eat. When I eat I watch tv. When I'm done eating I usually linger until the show I'm watching ends. Then I go back to my computer. I do use the bathroom and eat, but in the meantime, until around 2am, I'm on my computer. Once a week I volunteer at the library, and when my sister invites me to go out, I don't hesitate.
My thoughts: When I eat and watch TV, I'm focused on the program I'm watching. Sometimes my thoughts stray to homework or school, or something along those lines. When I'm in the library, where there are computers, I don't even glance at them. I shelve books, DVD's etc. and diligently. In the past, when I was on vacation for a week and didn't have access to a computer, I rarely thought about it. I only ever did think about accessing a computer on days when a new chapter of a manga I liked came out. Last year while at school, during my lunch time I go to the library to hang with friends or volunteer. There, I too have access to computers. I sometimes linger nearby when my friends are on one and while I talk to them. Sometimes I need to change browser settings, but it only takes a few seconds and then I'm off. When I'm outside I think about what I'm doing then. And when I'm in bed I think about life, homework, school, what I've been reading, etc.
I personally don't think I'm addicted. Sure, I'm on the computer a helluva lot, but it's more out of boredom than obsession. I think addiction in this situation is supposed to be psychological, and I dont think I have the "I must be on a computer" type of thoughts.
I have nothing much to do at home except TV and computer. The computer offers many diversions. When I find a long book series, I tend to be "busier" while on the computer because I want to finish it quickly. Same with TV Shows. I marathon them. When I play multiplayer games, I can't just log out to eat instantly. I need a few minutes to let everyone know I'm leaving, or to wrap up what I'm doing. I try to find new things to occupy my time, and thus that "I want to finish this before..." mentality sprouts. When I'm done, I don't like being bored and seek something else. It is a cycle that keeps me on the computer, but if I had alternatives like going to the movies, I'd hop on that alternative. (Unless I'm in the middle of a REALLY good scene/part in a book/series/etc.)
Is this really addiction?